The Lady in Red *Not Dao*

So after coming home and visiting my family and talking to neighbors and stuff I have come to the conclusion on some things in my life.

I doubt many people would attend my funeral, or talk much about me after I pass, though I know some will. I know my first love will be sad if I left, as well as family members. Some of the acquaintances would be saddened to know my personality will be lost to the world. The mortality effect comes to mind on vacation.

Talking with a great lady we talked about significant others. I am all for being a lone in life. I was had the epiphany when I came up that if I ever came back to Ohio I would have to be comfortable living alone, because there would be no girl that fits the Lady in Red syndrome I have going on.

What is the lady in red syndrome? Well my lady in red would have to be physically hot, loyal, with no kids, and head over heals in love (i mean fully in love not this fictional or infatuation crap people deal with), and be an intellect. She would need to make sure that I eat and stop doing things I shouldn't like my Mt. Dew. Remind me to eat. See simple everyday things most people remember to do, slips my mind.

The lady in red would need to be Asian heritage, with a great complexion that seems to be etched in marble and one time can not seem to touch. Most important is the intellect and creativity of the person would have to be phenomenal as I get bored to easy. I get really bored really quick. I don't think there is a person of that stature in my home town, and since I have gotten to the point of not wanting a relationship period, it will be hard to find a person like this even in Milwaukee. Simple fact of the matter is that I want my Lady in Red but have no drive to find her, or should I say no desire to put time in such a search anymore. Each time I break up a relationship my choices become more impossible to find, and harder to fit.

I realize that more than likely I will be alone for the rest of my life, and where most people would be sad I am perfectly at ease with this thought. Though it is not good for my health, or mental state at all. I guess being human demands some sort of human interaction even if it is just a little. Right now in my life I am fine with it since I have a room mate, but one day I fear of just loosing my mind. I guess that is my biggest concern. Though I want to eventually work for a company that requires physical work and not technical thinking, I fear my mind is being overly used and will give out on the strands of reality one day.

I value a human mind, I value thought and creative thinking. I would be lost if I could not write, or could not have an intellectual conversation or debate with someone. I think at that point boredom would kick in so much that I would totally give up and flip out on society.

So my dreams of finding the woman in red seems at this point in my life hopeless. Could I have a girlfriend tomorrow? If I wanted to and got over my rejection of people in general I could. But when people just hurt people and act like they are in high school, why would I want to trust anyone? My heart has had several breaks and I don't think I would live through another crack. My heart would shatter and if the heart shatters so can the mind. Going through a heartbreak is hard on the body, the emotions, and the mind.

I am not a person that can outwardly show emotions, but I do care about people, though sometimes I am harsh with my words, but the harshness comes from a constant failure of people I was with in life. I always try to bet on sure things, and it is about the security of doing a sure thing, but how can you bet on another humans emotions when they are easily subjected to a change that seems to come from nowhere.

I occasionally write the ex-wife, letting her know I hope she finds happiness, and that her life is going well. Guess being an adult is still beyond her so it seems. I never get a response back, probably never will since most people have the high school syndrome. It is not like I want to get back with her, or even have any harsh feelings toward her, but it seems that she has harsh feelings toward me, and I was the one that wanted to work it out.

In today's time I have no harsh feelings toward the ex-girlfriend that claims she had my child. I even tried to mend that area of my life. I put the ball in her court and nothing came out of it. I will say that at this time of my life I am no longer consumed with curiosity of the child, or consumed by questions about the child.

At one point in my marriage I was consumed about the possibility of the child being mine. Way I see it now is that the child is going on 13 and I have never been aloud in her life, so I am not even the father, or dad. Even if DNA proved this to be the case, I would not feel either way about the issue. I put forth the effort to correct the wrongs, and it seems like action and kind words do not even phase this generation of people. It really makes me sick of dealing with people in reality. It makes me ill just to see day to day activities of people.

It is hard to become a friend of mine, most people are acquaintances, a friend is for life, but a friend is more than just someone I talk to, or care about. I care about my acquaintances too, a friend is on the verge of being family. I suppose the biggest regret I have at this point is still being around to witness this crap world ran by ignorant politicians, arguing political parties, and people that could never stop treating people like they are in high school.

Wake up people, you making a society of degenerate, evil, and cruel people. People that turn off their emotions, that doesn't want anything to do with others, and rarely cares about their own emotions. But those same people are the ones that will do something for another person quickly and without any question to their own profitability out of the situation.

Inevitability *Dao somewhat*

It is inevitable that I breath, that I eat, that I sleep. The validity of truth will remain as what the observer sees as right, though the eyes can betray, the ears deceive, the heart waiver in the presence of truth.

The conviction of those to who live by emotional needs, emotional ties is staggering to those that have lived life with nothing but logical thinking as the dominate side. Logic over-rules the emotions and ensures a working environment of ones mental state.

A persons pantheon in life is usually towards their own self wants and self worth. It is inevitable, humanity is just egotistical, they have not be taught differently, or allowed to adjust to the true nature of the world and cosmos. The credence that all things are connected, and all things have cause and effect on everything else.

A person's volition is stronger when driven by egotistical mannerisms. Society does not realize that the inevitability of evil is spawn from the society rules, guidelines, and code to start with. As a person becomes more popular, more situated into a social event, or structure the more evil comes creeping into their heart.

There are many things inevitable in life and in death. It is inevitable that we met, and it will be inevitable that we meet in the future although we have not met yet. A meeting between two people about this and that.

The 4th dimension, space time is pushing against you, while pulling you together. Gravity pulls you down to earth, keeping you from floating into space, in truth gravity pulls you to a single point, like that of a black whole pulling elements to a single point. Time works in an inevitable way, always aging things and yet giving things birth and youth.

I suppose it is inevitable that I am the way I am, I am who I am, and I do things the way I do them. More importantly it is inevitable that emotions are not easy to understand them.

Linear Thought vs. Quantum Thought. *Dao*

I borrowed this from another site, which got it from Oxford encyclopedia/dictionary.

linear, a. and n.

Add: [A.][3.]c. Of causation, evolution, time, etc.: progressing in a single direction by regular steps or stages, sequential.

- 1948 E. WHITTAKER Space & Spirit xxxix. 126 In the argument as usually presented..all chains of causation are simple linear sequences.
- 1954 A. P. USHER Hist. Mech. Inventions (ed. 2) ii. 30 The cultures of antiquity do not fit the patterns of the linear sequences of social and economic evolution developed by the German Historical Schools.
- 1972 R. D. WALSHE in G. W. Turner Good Austral. Eng. xi. 228 The McLuhan thesis that..‘linear thinking’..had been rendered obsolete by the new ‘in-depth’, ‘all-at-once’ thinking of the electronic media.
- 1979 P. MATTHIESSEN Snow Leopard i. 60 The Australian aborigines..distinguish between linear time and a ‘Great Time’ of dreams, myths, and heroes, in which all is present in this moment.
- 1983 P. LIVELY Perfect Happiness viii. 112 Time, that should be linear, had become formless.
- 1992 Forum Mod. Lang. Stud. Jan. 22 It is impossible to over-emphasise the importance of the poet's decision to keep the inexorable linear flow of time intact on each occasion when a-temporally is alluded to."

Now with this all out in the open, let me explain quantum idea. The idea where all points are tied to each other point. Thinking in quantum allows one to think of all possibilities of a situation rather quickly by accessing parts of the mind quicker than the process of sequenced thought.

Most of peoples mind work in a process of 1 then 2 then 3. where quantum thought starts and ends with 1, but in 1 it also holds 2 3 and on. How is this possible? The mind is a computer they say right, but it is more than just your average x86 or Risc computer. It is actually a quantum computer. Like today we have technology far better than we use, but the capital of making such machines is too costly at the time, so we wait years after it's development so it can be cost effective.

Generally this is how most people think. They think far below their potential. In fact humanity lives far below it's potential, thinks below it's potential, and acts far far below it's potential.

The statement, walk away because nothing is worth fighting for spawns the following from the linear thought form.

Sure things are worth fighting for. x life is worth fighting for, or y idea is worth fighting for.

Quantum thought tries to calculate every possibility and determines the best outcome for all. If x is protected, then z who was trying to kill x is killed. That spawns w to kills x and which will start an endless cycle of blood. So no life is really worth fighting for. Not in the aspects one uses fight in today terms.

Besides there are many ways to accomplish the same thing without the loss of life. The art of war states that a battle is only truly one if no life is lost. Using spies, having the enemy struggle within upon their choices. To win the battle without fighting is much better way to accomplish something.

Unlike the majority of people out there that talk without realizing what exactly they say, it is not their fault thought. It is more society brain washing. It is however the fault of a person not to question society, to lead life according to what the news stations say, or the magazines, TV, even computer says how you should live and think.

I say there is emotion is useless, and well it is in certain aspects. When searching for truth emotion can cloud judgements and calculations, also it can form bias standings, which get in the way of calculated and proven truths. The emotions of the people of earth was that it was flat, so people did not sail to the edge of the world. The emotions of falling off kept them from calculating the truth fully. So yes feelings in a degree are useless, but in other aspects such as the arts, emotions are priceless.

In my life they are more worthless on a daily basis than what others think they are, but I still feed my emotions and let them out to play when I write. When dealing with people the well the more closed in the emotions the more truth and the more resolutions can appear to happen. I would rather not have emotions involved in dealing with people so I can focus on their emotional give a ways.

My path in life encompasses those parts of the soul, inner being that others try to carve out of themselves. Which may make me seem heartless, cold, evil, or murderous. But at least I am a whole person. Yes I lead life in a very monk type way, but it does not mean I cut out the side of my inner being that loves to harm and hurt. I humour the thought, but redirect it at the same time to a positive manner. When I talk about my darker side, it may seem disturbing, or un-sage worthy, but trust me, at least when I die, I will be a whole person that enjoyed the journey and the death all the way to the end. Why? Because I lived according to my path, my Dao and not anyone else.

Do I care what people think of me? No. I really don't. If they like me or hate me, it is their opinion. Since I was young I thought outside the normal, since I was young I did not fit in but yet somehow did. The Dao state if you have one thing you will find the complete opposite as well regardless of what you do it will eventually happen. So here is a thought, if you try to totally get rid of hate, greed, anger, and destruction, what else are you truly giving up? The opposites of such emotions. You hide them, you can't get rid of them. Then you claim you love xyz or your not angry, or your not greedy, all the time such humbling actions are untrue.

Only a person that has come to terms with such emotions can control such emotions. Do I feel bad about anything in life? No not really, I have come to a calm spot though sometimes dark, or cold but it still is comfortable and natural for me. Why should I fight when I can walk away. Just because someone wants to put a roadblock up in front of me I will just flow with the water and go in a different direction. In the end the water will be there however what use is a damn if the water is taken a way?

There are so many calculations that one can do for death. Bottom line though is it will happen if you fight or not, it is part of the cycle. If you fight you use energy for a cause that in a few years really won't matter anyway. Picking your battles? Na, if you want the water to flow a different way, build a canal, not a damn.

Only linear thought thinks the only way to force water is to build a damn, if that is not option then go to a canal. Better yet relocate the water and it's source and you do not have to waste energy in building something, plus you provide the water to an area that needs it more. Oh what wait, that is not in a sequence. Here is another idea, compress it, slow it to a bare crawl on a molecular level, if atoms of water do not move, then the water will not move.

all viable options on how to manipulate a situation without building a damn. In other words all ways to handle a situation without a fight, or at least a full energy fight. Use the weight and energy of the opposing force against itself.

Most of civilization and I use the term loosely, will willingly immediately try to fight and claim it is survival instinct. The animals and creatures that survive is not only using instinct, but calculated moves, with a cool head. Survival instincts coming from a linear thought person is nothing but words spewing out. The first thing they do in a crisis is panic.

Quantum thinkers, instantly have at least 5 plans for an exit strategy, and stipulations to issues that may come up. These are the true survival instincts of nature. Rely on emotions and more than likely you will not survive, rely on calculated, and planned logic and the odds greatly improve.

A sage has full control of the emotions, but it does not mean they lack the darker side, it means they accepted that side and chose to redirect it for the highest benefit of others. A sage that lacked the animal inside or portions of that animal was no sage at all, but a religious (with the rules that tame all others) leader.

Religion is a virus to me. Pick a religion any. Then ask a question that brings that religion into a darker light or leads to a logical reason why it should not be and the priest gets upset. Why because the religion is set up based on faith with the inability to question things. It has golden rules that one is supposed to follow that helps priest become rich, or control people. In my deepest thought, religion is the majority source of all problems in the world. The biggest contributor to a social deterioration of values, and more and more blood in the world.

People who would start to try to develop quantum thought instead of linear would be so much quicker in finding answers, because they are not afraid to think in all directions at once, and yet still keep all thoughts separated, or link them all together for an answer.

See the brain is capable of multi-threading and multi-tasking. The body however is not so much. There is a delay in the hands, and eyes. But if calculating theory, thoughts, ideas, close the eyes, calm the body and let the mind free of restraint and soon you will find that circles and patterns, and multiple thoughts running at once with ease you keep up to them. I think the sages of old were also quantum thinkers as well, and not so much as linear thinkers.

I will leave you at that point to think upon. All things seem different in this blog tonight but all things relate.

Fedora Update

The Jade Monk has loaded up the Fedora drive today. Now I have 4 desktops and 4 times the power to research with. 4 times the speed of wimpows, not to mention the ability to do things quicker.

The Jade Monk also leaves facebook open all the time, even though I am not at the computer it looks like I am online. I leave programs up so I do not have to wait for them to load up again.

Some days the Jade Monk is so pre-occupied that he ignores the phones, IM's and mails. There is so much I wish to accomplish, some things to learn, some ideas to pan out. Being alone is not all that bad. I prefer it mostly. It is not as lonely when you choose a world that keeps your thoughts away from being alone.

I guess I am gifted with an over active mind. I can think about 200 different directions and still remain a constant separation of the threads of thoughts. I like to think of the scientific and the abstract. I like to sit in the darkness and let the thoughts roam. This is the things I find more enjoyable.

So now I am watching Fruits Basket anime. I forgot how I found this anime, but it is pretty cool with a lot of lessons that I still need to work on even. Fedora is booted up and I will be very much writing more, and researching more. There goes sleep for a while, I suppose I will have to learn to slow my mind down when it is time to sleep.

Well I am outta here, got more Linux enjoyment to go through.

In the news ... *J.C. Style Reasoning*

In the news:

After Israel Raids Flotilla, US Is Torn Between Allies

Honestly we can kill two birds with one stone. As a country we need to give up our world watch dog status and share it with another up coming country. We need to focus on our side of the planet and well we need a power house on the other side of the country that can assist us with the watch dog status. China wants more respect, how better to show your respect but to add more responsibility for the the country to deal with. Israel, turkey, and all those other religious fanatic areas will be watched over by a state that can care less about religion or disputes that obviously are religious based.

Let's admit it, the only reason US government does not give China more responsibilities is for 2 obvious reasons. They are not Democratic, and they are not a Christian built country. Personally I think the US needs to take a few steps back and quit playing in the yards of others. Sharing the watch dog status with China and listening to their ideas for their backyard, is better than a country around the world that is separated by ocean telling them what to do. But in the same aspect we share our ideas, on both sides of the globe. Think of it as they are the strength over there, but the idea's over here. We are the strength over here and the idea's over there.

Does not mean they have to agree with the ideas, but they should consider them, just like we should consider their ideas with as much tenacity as our own ideas. The whole Turkey and Israel conflict just shows how inexperienced and inappropriate Obama is for the Office.

In the News:

Okinawa voices: 'No more bases'

Oh I love this one. Every single American should band with the Japanese residents on this too. Look at it this way, we were upset when we had bases closing here on our home soil, but yet not a single on over seas was taken away, especially in Okinawa.

There should only be one U.S. base maybe 2 in the whole freaking territory of Japan. The local police should have jurisdiction or at least shared jurisdiction over crimes committed by US military. Why are we hated as United States, just look at our government, and the criminals in our military. US has nothing to be proud about, we are just as savage as any other person that believes there way is the only way and it is right.

I say give Okinawa back to the Japanese. They have suffered long enough for a war that happened long ago. They are our allies now, and I would say let the allies build a defense force, if anything it can only help strengthen the allies it belongs too, which happens to be the US.

In the news....

Suspects must assert right to silence

Contrary belief you do not have a right to remain silent, you have to speak up to be silent. This is just plain ignorance, stupidity, and new step to kill American Legal steps that actually do protect the innocent from being coherence into, things. The law is messed up anyways. If you say something you automatically waive your right is how I see it. It is free information you are giving.

The legal system here in the states is way to complicated, way to fragile, and filled with too many holes due to things like the above. A new law comes out every day that adds a loop hole, so it seems anyway.

In the News...

Obama vows justice if laws broken in oil spill

Yea just like his Aunt being deported, or kicked out of the country. That didn't happen. Oh he will fine them or what not, but in the end it will not be a victory because the amount fined will be like a $20 bill to the company.

Obama has no clue how to run the country, how to play the diplomat or how to be a person of government. How can he vow justice, justice is not his department it is the Judiciary Branches department. Obama should be impeached for being a moron.