Welcome the Destoryer. *Dao*

Throughout all of nature one creature has the power to destroy itself along with all others, that creature is man.

Human kind has gone through many transformations during it's existence. From simple hunting and gathering nomads that lived with nature, to an ecological destructive force. Not only are we as a race destructive to nature, but we defeat ourselves, in spirit, mind, and body.

Today many do not camp, live off the land, and become complex with the me syndrome. What can I get to be happy, what can I take from someone to make them sad, and how can I be better than Joe down the street.

Stress is a undesired reaction to a situation that one feels uneasy about. Stress can be a result of other emotions to a situation as well. Stress in reality is something we create within our own minds.

If one can accept that some things are beyond your control, and just go with the flow, and bend with the river then how can any external issue cause stress. If things are out of your control why should you stress out about it, for it is not something you control anyways.

Society wants this and that from people, they want you to work life away, demand unrealistic things from a person, work less people for more hours. Demand more technology to perform the job, outsource and off shore in order to make the jobs more competitive while not sufficiently fixing economic to accommodate such things.

You have business men working for peanuts, rearranging people's lives with moves and outsourcing, and then some taking money away from the company. Yet all is right with the world because god is in his heaven.

Most people do not say hello and mean it, they are just programmed to just say it and continue on with self instead of a whole. They forget the basics of courtesy, and kindness, and just the thought of helping a neighbor. Instead of holding doors open and taking 20 more seconds just to be kind, the busy body world ignores rules of chivalry. Lie cheat and steal to get more than others seems to be the current law of the land.

Let us check the news real quick:
Pentagon: Sexual assault reporting up among troops from CNN
Couple slain in Mexico shooting had baby on the way from CNN
Woods to make return at Masters from BBC under North America Sector

Okay first things first, who cares about all this. It is not real news. It does not increase my quality of life knowing about such things, it drowns out what is really important. It has no bearing on my life what so ever, it is depressing story after depressing story and yet Americana's allow them to continue to publish such crap. You got countries at war with each other, finger pointing between countries, and a Nuke ready to be launched in all the dark corners of earth.

Man is the scourge of this world with it's current thoughts. Few have the drive to surpass the demon inside and just go with natural order of things. Nature balances populations by producing balance within an ecosystem. However, humanity does not follow this ideology of balance. We reproduce and create a number of beings that consume resources quicker than they can be produced.

Then the infamous religion issue. Religion is nice when it is done correctly, however you have rules in religion that put blinders on to the rest of the world. The religion says to be kind to all but few rarely are, and most are not genuine in the concept for they only focus on getting to that realm where their god is. True faith starts by not following the rules set forth by religious establishments and finding your own truth, the truth whispered in your Dao.

Where there is a destroyer there is a creator. The creator comes when one returns to the beginning, of days long past, and realizes that less provides more, and nature is an entity to live with not above.

One that bends with the issues of life and finds pathways to silver linings within each obstacle, and when the want is not there, the need becomes clear. Thankful for all things in life, and practices kindness without thought.

It would seem that there should be more creators, but alas society has generated terrible Destroyers and praises only the very best of them. Social ideas of today begins young and puts forth destroyers at an earlier age. I want syndrome.

You know back when I was young, if we said we wanted, the answer would be, and people in hell want ice water, or people in Ethiopia would want it too. Now many people just buy the toys, or if they can't they make promises to buy it when they get the money, and only sometimes make good on the promise.

Back then as a child you got the truth even if it was vague, today you get illusions. Back then we got kicked out to play outside, today people stay in doors or clubs, or bars and do not frequent the rolling in the grass, the nature hike through woods, or even swinging in a tree.

The brain washing of only kids do such things and I am a responsible adult so I can't do it syndrome. If you had fun doing it as a child why should you not enjoy it as an adult. It is simple, it is natural, and it is enjoyable. Just because the current population views thinks as childish does not make it so. The greatest things come from a child like thought. But the destroyers stop people from returning to the natural order of things.

I think I am going to leave everyone hang out right here for a while. A lot to take in I think and well if the glass is empty then nothing else can be consumed, as such if a glass is full you can not fill it anymore.

And the Water Fell. *Dao*

As one comes another fades, as another fades one comes. The world has deviated from what it was, now to obtain happiness one must get that, or have this, or date the prom queen, well this is this and that is that.

Watching my anime I heard this roaring sound outside. I thought I heard rain. Most people like the sun, and blue skies. Most people like warm weather and clear sailing. I am far from most people, though. I like my days with overcast, and a hint of rain. I like the night, and love the storms. I always have.

Even in a storm there are few who find peace in them, get excited with them like a kid on Christmas. I suppose I feel like the plant life eager for a drink, eager for the refreshing water after a long dry, clear, hot spell.

Animals seek shade in the summer and do their things accordingly, they do not lounge at a beach to get burned. Humanity has lost it's way in these times, and although a few people a year find the Dao or Buddha, Humanity just populates more busy bodies that really accomplish nothing to note at the end of the journey.

Money does not buy you happiness, or buy you love. Money does not make you like yourself any better, or take you closer to the path. When you die it all stays here, and in time your person will be forgotten.

As the water fell tonight I try to commit it to memory. My smile came, I was eager like a child, and wanted more, faster, harder, and then it slowed. The lightning struck toward the end. I have always love lightning too, which is odd I am more fearful of man made electric than that of natural lightning. It is beautiful, and has a certain brilliance behind it. One flash differing from the next.

Spring water is always cool upon one's skin, and when reaching out to let the water hit my skin, I felt the cool chill in the water, but a nice chill, not a freezing iced water. A chilled water as by slowly chilled from falling through the air. Man can not imitate it, the water has a slight essence about it. If you let go and just be you can sense it, you can feel it as well as all of nature that becomes thankful of the storm for delivering the very liquid of life and cooling effect of the storm.

When youth was around I heard people Thankful for the Rain. In today's society I hear people cursing the rain because it ruined their plans to go out and socialize. I only hear thankfulness when the blistering heat is relieved for a short period or that the urban houses get their lawn back. A lawn does not constitute Nature, while part of it the larger picture is missed.

Indians used to do Rain Dances and prayed to the gods for rain, those that had none prayed for some, and those that had abundance cursed it. People forgot to be grateful for what they have until they loose it.

Day by day I think of her. Day by day I miss her. Not my ex-wife but my first love, my high-school sweetheart. Took me loosing her to realize how grateful I was to have her. Take nothing for granted and granted can take nothing from you.

Yet today the water fell. I got a picture of an amazing cat, I helped a person with their computer and I slept. I may not have done exciting things like my neighbor or much like Mr. Busybody but I feel my day was completed the way it should have been. I feel content in knowing things are flowing the way they need to.

Am I happy right now? Not really but happier than when I was married, happier than when I was a child, but in a utopia, no not there. What do I want in life to be happy? My friend and companion, my love and my soul to come back to me. Until that happens, if it does even, I will live my life for others, help others, and enjoy the rain, the clouds, and the storms. Because even the earth gets thirsty.

Preparations, random thoughts *Dao and yet not Dao*

A step forward a concern to the side, one must not focus on surrounding issues. Look to the side and you get hit from the front. Focus only on what is in front of you and get attacked from behind. Be aware of all directions while moving forward, if an attack is coming from the rear, turn and face it but never look back, always face forward.

People in life are lost, but strive to niche out a place for themselves. Even the lost will fight for something, but the master fights for nothing and in turn gets everything he ever wanted.

I am looking forward even though there are questionable entities to the side. I decided I would start to organize things for the move. Prepare and pack some today. Time is coming quickly I feel and it is not the type of thing to be caught unprepared.

When I was young I attended Boy Scouts. The motto was: Be Prepared. Such a simple idea that seems to have lost all it's meaning in the world. Prepared for what? In the Boy Scouts I always felt it meant be prepared to survive, in the wild, in life, in every aspect of the scouts dealings.

As an adult I still feel this way. I am prepared to work, prepared to learn (although lately it has been difficult), prepared to love, prepared to be alone. In all aspects that can hit me I think the only one I have not prepared for is to be rich. I never prepared for it because I always thought it dealt with money. Maybe this move will teach me there is something else that can be considered that has no monetary value and still be considered rich.

Just because a sage said that one who knows himself and treats the world though kind and caring eyes is truly wealthy, does not mean that his Dao is my Dao. My Dao has yet to find itself a wealth of that level. Just like people are different so to is the Dao of a person. Don't get me wrong I believe in the sages words, I just do not define that as wealth at this stage of the path.

I suppose it is because even through kindness people have never really treated me right, always seemed to be distant, and never really tried to understand me. They always tried to analyze me, or psychologically profile me, or called me young.

This journey may end up taking me where I need to be, and then again it may take me to complete ruin. But the possibility of getting to a point where a smile is worn more than a frown is an opportunity to take.

A river that flows quick can swallow those that fight it, swallow those not prepared, and drown those that try to force it from flowing. I sense a the river quickly picking up speed in this move. If information is not given to a person, they should prepare strategies for multiple situations and react accordingly, remembering the steps of a crisis situation when the river turns a sharp corner during it's journey. Panic and the rocks will be there to great you.

Swimming with the waves of a fast moving river gives you waves that push you along instead of holding you back. Preparation allows one to know prepare for a turn, a twist, fast flowing water, and changes that may occur, but it still has to follow the rules of a crisis situation.

I am thinking about adding to the rules I learned long ago.
1. Do not panic
2. Breathe
3. Look at the situation logically
4. Think of a solution and go with it. Do not hesitate.
5. Follow through with the solution.

I am thinking of adding some things like this:
Do not get anxious
Do not stress
Strength comes from within.
Flow with the issue, deflect while fixing an the issue.
A Crisis is made of multiple small issues. Fix the small and the large will disappear.
Being prepared may not stop a crisis, but will assist in solving it faster.

When I was young I also went to Cub Scouts, and Webelos. What was the motto for Cub Scouts...
Funny I had to Google that but it is: Do your best. The word Webelos means: We be Loyal Scouts.

Funny how a childhood thing like this affects an adult. I am loyal, I do try my best, and I try to prepare for all things in my life. The fall of all this is that with all these motto's and all these activities in the wilderness the lesson falls short due to sight for several things. Love for example, I do not think I was ever ready for it, much less prepared. When you live life in preparation for things, then life is only meant as preparation, and not lived. When your best fails, you tend to beat yourself up, making your being become a crushed powder of the rock it once was. Wind can not touch rock, but can blow powder easily enough.

When I was young, I was an outcast to people my own age. Funny this still has not really changed. I have a different way of thinking, of acting, and with my empathy it is really easier being the outcast at times.

I so need to prepare for this move. I suppose I will pack over the next couple of days. Stuff is laid out in order to make it go a little quicker. Plus I am sure I can conscript a little army to help if need be. My family is really cool in a pinch situation.

Well of to read a book a little and then crash. Have a great day my readers.

Journey of a Thousand Steps. *Dao*

The wind blows from a different direction now. The water starts to flow as spring sets in. Those of nature start to wake up from a long winter's sleep. Those reflecting in the past move into the present and future as well as the past. Time exists to none, but belongs to all.

A new journey after a winter freeze is approaching. A single step is made and the direction set for the journey to take place. A setting for a play to begin, as the actors take the stage. A new beginning with old knowledge can produce varied results as well as new knowledge to begin with.

The journey starts with a single step, and can end past the thousand that is planned for, is it the journey destination or the journey itself that is important? Can a journey lead back to a place in life where things were happier, where the feelings one had for another could be rekindled by someone new? Or by someone from the past?

Anxiously he waits to begin the journey, without realizing the journey has already begun. The steps have been taken and the journey seems so natural that the walk seems like nothing is happening.

One always has the past, the present rolling into the past, and the future becoming the present. The past building the the present, the present building the future. What one has is all things, but alas has nothing as a result. The past, present and future are yours to have, but once you have it, you realize you have nothing as well. A riddle here, a riddle there. One riddle referring to another, another riddle answering a future riddle, but a riddle is only a riddle for those that treat the riddle as a riddle.

This time I tell her I love her, this time I tell her she is my life, but this time I lead life the way I was meant to, though kindness, through humble dealings. But time is not presented to do this, and yet she knows how I feel and yet she knows who she is.

I have her and yet I do not have anyone. I love her and yet I can not hold her. Time comes and time goes. Why worry about what one has or does not have? When the journey ends, can you say I at least had this or that? Should one not be able to say, at least I helped someone out? At least someones life was improved by my existence?

To walk a thousand steps, is such a short journey, but at the end of a thousand steps one begins another journey with that single step.

A time to go, a time to come, is it not time to rest, and time to work? Work and rest, rest and work. Work and rest does not define a person, but the thoughts and actions of a person defines the rest. To be or not to be is Shakespeare's question, but regardless of the question the actions will answer the question.

Work hard or hardly work, the answer is how one views a situation. Views of one, is not a view of all. The view of all, can not be seen by the view of one. Take a step forward and one may end up going backwards, but going back can lead forward.

The journey presents itself with turns and twists as well. A right choice can lead to a dead end, where a wrong choice can lead back to a road previously detoured from. Whose to say what is wrong and what is right, but one should always walk the journey from the heart.

Love is here and love is there, but never seems to last as a stagnant thing, it changes, morphs and can even die, but live, die, or change love is around.

Time to end this writing but alas another will come, come and go one must always walk a journey.