So the night was enjoyable last night. I got to see my daughter who was sick, be just like her dad with the serving staff. Which I found totally amazing. So this lady ignored her when she wanted to order something, so when Jason was going to ask her to come over to take her order, she flat refused to be served by the woman. It reminds me of me, little one makes me proud to be her dad all the time.
She was not feeling well so she left, and shortly after my friend Allison showed up, once again really enjoyed the company. playing pool, giving her a massage, having people stare at my attention to her. It is fun to pay attention to a woman in public, and have the whole crowd of people want to be that person. It is a natural ability to pay attention to the room, at the same time paying attention a lovely lady. A simple corner glance, or a simple scan of people can get a person full disclosure.
After a while I walked Allison out to her car. Really enjoyed seeing her come out and escorting her out was pretty damn good too.
Then it was just the guys playing pool. Let me tell you without telling you, watching a younger person do certain things, well as a older person, it was cool to see. The different tactics, the different approach, the different thought process. It was fun to watch to see, to know what was going on in the persons mind. It is uncanny I can do that in these particular situations, I really enjoy that gift.
I then sat up the rest of the morning talking to a friend that was out there. Was over all an interesting night, and much of it I can not write about. But it relieved stress, which was the focus.
Sunday, November 16, 2014
Saturday, November 15, 2014
..:: Help ::..
During times of pain and hurt, or crisis and torment. People come out of the wood works to offer help, opinion, and solutions. While I understand the world wants to be helpful, some people just do not understand that when it is between two people, well it is between those two. Hearing this or that and forming the opinion or the input on what the situation is, is never going to work.
When you start to get depressed or life throws you a curve, or change happens, there is only one person one can rely on and it become effective. That is yourself, your ideas, your time, and your energy. At one point in time a breakup would have devastated me, sent me into a twirling spiral to the event horizon of suicide. So many things in life I believe has helped me to get to the point where I only take one or two days and go through all stages of grief and end up better.
Pi?¿? What does the expression of Pi have to do with life? Well during my existential crisis many years ago my scientific mind wanted to find a mathematical expression that could allow modifications to ones standing and relationships. The solution was Pi. The base of a person is 3.14. Why to this digit of the number, besides it is the common reference. If one thinks about it, you find that one person is 3 aspects. Take a man for example since I am a man. There is me as a lover, me as a worker, and me as a dad. If you like you can look at the other aspects as well. Mind, Body, and Spirit.
The only one that can defeat a person and let negative emotions in, is you yourself. It is not really all that difficult, of course I have a unique position in life in the matter. If you meet someone, go from 3.14 to 3.141 if that person and you decide not to ever speak or change the dynamics of your relationship, you return back to 3.14 or if in the other direction add a digit.You can utilize a digit to determine relationships or to express the importance of a relationship. Regardless of how Pi is used, it will always remain 3.14.
I think my journey to become a sage has helped as well. This week alone I told my daughter I felt invincible. The story goes that when a Taoist has reached cultivation not a tigers tooth, nor a rhinos horn can penetrate the monk as he walks through the jungle. That is how I feel at this point. The Tao and the Pi has allowed me to in 2 days go from being dumped and becoming single in a positive manner. Where pain is essentially wiped away, like an etch-o-sketch being erased. Yes I know you like that analogy.
Essentially it comes down to choice, do you choose to be miserable, or do you choose to do things that make you happy, and move forward. Change is never a bad thing, even if it does look bad, it can lead to many new open doors that could one day change life in a drastic positive way.
But still people offer to help, give their input. From many sides about the situation, when honestly I am very keen on the human behavioral sciences, and realize that some people are just bias on both sides. Either for me, or for the other party. Essentially I don't want to hear it, why??? Because I am doing fine, I have myself, I have my principles, and I have my ideas for the world. By the world I mean the world I impact, the world I see, the way things are in my tiny little space of the planet. :) Why should it matter if I hear, this or that, and this could be why. Simple way to look at things, the easiest aspect is to perform Ockham's Razor. Either this person wants me or not, or that person wants me or not. This date will show me if this person likes me or not, or vice versa. When you perform the simplest calculation does it really matter the complicated reasoning behind the end result. Does all these complicated reasons change the end result. Not really, the end result is the end result. If this then that. Well if this sub routine is chosen, then the end result will be what is programmed. The program continues and the next round one may choose a different if statement, and it may end in a different result. 0 and 1 is the language of existence. It either is, or isn't. That is how I see things really.
Since I started after my existential crisis, I have become stronger, and less destructive to myself, and my life. I am able to have and loose relationships without being crushed, by the human condition known as depression, guilt, self detriment emotional dealings. So to the world that wants to help on both sides of my world. If I ever wanted to complicate my life, I would ask. But living a simple definition of things gives me powers and abilities that allow me to be me.
When you start to get depressed or life throws you a curve, or change happens, there is only one person one can rely on and it become effective. That is yourself, your ideas, your time, and your energy. At one point in time a breakup would have devastated me, sent me into a twirling spiral to the event horizon of suicide. So many things in life I believe has helped me to get to the point where I only take one or two days and go through all stages of grief and end up better.
Pi?¿? What does the expression of Pi have to do with life? Well during my existential crisis many years ago my scientific mind wanted to find a mathematical expression that could allow modifications to ones standing and relationships. The solution was Pi. The base of a person is 3.14. Why to this digit of the number, besides it is the common reference. If one thinks about it, you find that one person is 3 aspects. Take a man for example since I am a man. There is me as a lover, me as a worker, and me as a dad. If you like you can look at the other aspects as well. Mind, Body, and Spirit.
The only one that can defeat a person and let negative emotions in, is you yourself. It is not really all that difficult, of course I have a unique position in life in the matter. If you meet someone, go from 3.14 to 3.141 if that person and you decide not to ever speak or change the dynamics of your relationship, you return back to 3.14 or if in the other direction add a digit.You can utilize a digit to determine relationships or to express the importance of a relationship. Regardless of how Pi is used, it will always remain 3.14.
I think my journey to become a sage has helped as well. This week alone I told my daughter I felt invincible. The story goes that when a Taoist has reached cultivation not a tigers tooth, nor a rhinos horn can penetrate the monk as he walks through the jungle. That is how I feel at this point. The Tao and the Pi has allowed me to in 2 days go from being dumped and becoming single in a positive manner. Where pain is essentially wiped away, like an etch-o-sketch being erased. Yes I know you like that analogy.
Essentially it comes down to choice, do you choose to be miserable, or do you choose to do things that make you happy, and move forward. Change is never a bad thing, even if it does look bad, it can lead to many new open doors that could one day change life in a drastic positive way.
But still people offer to help, give their input. From many sides about the situation, when honestly I am very keen on the human behavioral sciences, and realize that some people are just bias on both sides. Either for me, or for the other party. Essentially I don't want to hear it, why??? Because I am doing fine, I have myself, I have my principles, and I have my ideas for the world. By the world I mean the world I impact, the world I see, the way things are in my tiny little space of the planet. :) Why should it matter if I hear, this or that, and this could be why. Simple way to look at things, the easiest aspect is to perform Ockham's Razor. Either this person wants me or not, or that person wants me or not. This date will show me if this person likes me or not, or vice versa. When you perform the simplest calculation does it really matter the complicated reasoning behind the end result. Does all these complicated reasons change the end result. Not really, the end result is the end result. If this then that. Well if this sub routine is chosen, then the end result will be what is programmed. The program continues and the next round one may choose a different if statement, and it may end in a different result. 0 and 1 is the language of existence. It either is, or isn't. That is how I see things really.
Since I started after my existential crisis, I have become stronger, and less destructive to myself, and my life. I am able to have and loose relationships without being crushed, by the human condition known as depression, guilt, self detriment emotional dealings. So to the world that wants to help on both sides of my world. If I ever wanted to complicate my life, I would ask. But living a simple definition of things gives me powers and abilities that allow me to be me.
Friday, November 14, 2014
The work..
Since I have to get ready for work shortly just a couple of thoughts. For about a week I have been working out, and I love my body mechanics so much. In a week my muscles have responded so well. I have growth in the chest, shrinking in the stomach, and some definition starting again. Nothing spectacular, but noticeable to me.
The greatest thing I learned about myself is over the years with all my hardships, the current hardships are easy to come back from. A simple choice, a switch if you will, that allows all the sadness or depression to go away. Change usually presents itself as a thing we dislike, but I am learning that change or steps back setup the situation to move forward as well, just in another direction. Call it a free spirit mentality but that is how it is shaping up to be.
Well got to go to work. Catch everyone later. Leave a comment if you want, if not don't.
The greatest thing I learned about myself is over the years with all my hardships, the current hardships are easy to come back from. A simple choice, a switch if you will, that allows all the sadness or depression to go away. Change usually presents itself as a thing we dislike, but I am learning that change or steps back setup the situation to move forward as well, just in another direction. Call it a free spirit mentality but that is how it is shaping up to be.
Well got to go to work. Catch everyone later. Leave a comment if you want, if not don't.
Twisting the Cove.
The cove is going under construction. It will be my new place to put daily thoughts, along with the philosophical thoughts.
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