So the night was enjoyable last night. I got to see my daughter who was sick, be just like her dad with the serving staff. Which I found totally amazing. So this lady ignored her when she wanted to order something, so when Jason was going to ask her to come over to take her order, she flat refused to be served by the woman. It reminds me of me, little one makes me proud to be her dad all the time.
She was not feeling well so she left, and shortly after my friend Allison showed up, once again really enjoyed the company. playing pool, giving her a massage, having people stare at my attention to her. It is fun to pay attention to a woman in public, and have the whole crowd of people want to be that person. It is a natural ability to pay attention to the room, at the same time paying attention a lovely lady. A simple corner glance, or a simple scan of people can get a person full disclosure.
After a while I walked Allison out to her car. Really enjoyed seeing her come out and escorting her out was pretty damn good too.
Then it was just the guys playing pool. Let me tell you without telling you, watching a younger person do certain things, well as a older person, it was cool to see. The different tactics, the different approach, the different thought process. It was fun to watch to see, to know what was going on in the persons mind. It is uncanny I can do that in these particular situations, I really enjoy that gift.
I then sat up the rest of the morning talking to a friend that was out there. Was over all an interesting night, and much of it I can not write about. But it relieved stress, which was the focus.
Sunday, November 16, 2014
Saturday, November 15, 2014
..:: Help ::..
During times of pain and hurt, or crisis and torment. People come out of the wood works to offer help, opinion, and solutions. While I understand the world wants to be helpful, some people just do not understand that when it is between two people, well it is between those two. Hearing this or that and forming the opinion or the input on what the situation is, is never going to work.
When you start to get depressed or life throws you a curve, or change happens, there is only one person one can rely on and it become effective. That is yourself, your ideas, your time, and your energy. At one point in time a breakup would have devastated me, sent me into a twirling spiral to the event horizon of suicide. So many things in life I believe has helped me to get to the point where I only take one or two days and go through all stages of grief and end up better.
Pi?¿? What does the expression of Pi have to do with life? Well during my existential crisis many years ago my scientific mind wanted to find a mathematical expression that could allow modifications to ones standing and relationships. The solution was Pi. The base of a person is 3.14. Why to this digit of the number, besides it is the common reference. If one thinks about it, you find that one person is 3 aspects. Take a man for example since I am a man. There is me as a lover, me as a worker, and me as a dad. If you like you can look at the other aspects as well. Mind, Body, and Spirit.
The only one that can defeat a person and let negative emotions in, is you yourself. It is not really all that difficult, of course I have a unique position in life in the matter. If you meet someone, go from 3.14 to 3.141 if that person and you decide not to ever speak or change the dynamics of your relationship, you return back to 3.14 or if in the other direction add a digit.You can utilize a digit to determine relationships or to express the importance of a relationship. Regardless of how Pi is used, it will always remain 3.14.
I think my journey to become a sage has helped as well. This week alone I told my daughter I felt invincible. The story goes that when a Taoist has reached cultivation not a tigers tooth, nor a rhinos horn can penetrate the monk as he walks through the jungle. That is how I feel at this point. The Tao and the Pi has allowed me to in 2 days go from being dumped and becoming single in a positive manner. Where pain is essentially wiped away, like an etch-o-sketch being erased. Yes I know you like that analogy.
Essentially it comes down to choice, do you choose to be miserable, or do you choose to do things that make you happy, and move forward. Change is never a bad thing, even if it does look bad, it can lead to many new open doors that could one day change life in a drastic positive way.
But still people offer to help, give their input. From many sides about the situation, when honestly I am very keen on the human behavioral sciences, and realize that some people are just bias on both sides. Either for me, or for the other party. Essentially I don't want to hear it, why??? Because I am doing fine, I have myself, I have my principles, and I have my ideas for the world. By the world I mean the world I impact, the world I see, the way things are in my tiny little space of the planet. :) Why should it matter if I hear, this or that, and this could be why. Simple way to look at things, the easiest aspect is to perform Ockham's Razor. Either this person wants me or not, or that person wants me or not. This date will show me if this person likes me or not, or vice versa. When you perform the simplest calculation does it really matter the complicated reasoning behind the end result. Does all these complicated reasons change the end result. Not really, the end result is the end result. If this then that. Well if this sub routine is chosen, then the end result will be what is programmed. The program continues and the next round one may choose a different if statement, and it may end in a different result. 0 and 1 is the language of existence. It either is, or isn't. That is how I see things really.
Since I started after my existential crisis, I have become stronger, and less destructive to myself, and my life. I am able to have and loose relationships without being crushed, by the human condition known as depression, guilt, self detriment emotional dealings. So to the world that wants to help on both sides of my world. If I ever wanted to complicate my life, I would ask. But living a simple definition of things gives me powers and abilities that allow me to be me.
When you start to get depressed or life throws you a curve, or change happens, there is only one person one can rely on and it become effective. That is yourself, your ideas, your time, and your energy. At one point in time a breakup would have devastated me, sent me into a twirling spiral to the event horizon of suicide. So many things in life I believe has helped me to get to the point where I only take one or two days and go through all stages of grief and end up better.
Pi?¿? What does the expression of Pi have to do with life? Well during my existential crisis many years ago my scientific mind wanted to find a mathematical expression that could allow modifications to ones standing and relationships. The solution was Pi. The base of a person is 3.14. Why to this digit of the number, besides it is the common reference. If one thinks about it, you find that one person is 3 aspects. Take a man for example since I am a man. There is me as a lover, me as a worker, and me as a dad. If you like you can look at the other aspects as well. Mind, Body, and Spirit.
The only one that can defeat a person and let negative emotions in, is you yourself. It is not really all that difficult, of course I have a unique position in life in the matter. If you meet someone, go from 3.14 to 3.141 if that person and you decide not to ever speak or change the dynamics of your relationship, you return back to 3.14 or if in the other direction add a digit.You can utilize a digit to determine relationships or to express the importance of a relationship. Regardless of how Pi is used, it will always remain 3.14.
I think my journey to become a sage has helped as well. This week alone I told my daughter I felt invincible. The story goes that when a Taoist has reached cultivation not a tigers tooth, nor a rhinos horn can penetrate the monk as he walks through the jungle. That is how I feel at this point. The Tao and the Pi has allowed me to in 2 days go from being dumped and becoming single in a positive manner. Where pain is essentially wiped away, like an etch-o-sketch being erased. Yes I know you like that analogy.
Essentially it comes down to choice, do you choose to be miserable, or do you choose to do things that make you happy, and move forward. Change is never a bad thing, even if it does look bad, it can lead to many new open doors that could one day change life in a drastic positive way.
But still people offer to help, give their input. From many sides about the situation, when honestly I am very keen on the human behavioral sciences, and realize that some people are just bias on both sides. Either for me, or for the other party. Essentially I don't want to hear it, why??? Because I am doing fine, I have myself, I have my principles, and I have my ideas for the world. By the world I mean the world I impact, the world I see, the way things are in my tiny little space of the planet. :) Why should it matter if I hear, this or that, and this could be why. Simple way to look at things, the easiest aspect is to perform Ockham's Razor. Either this person wants me or not, or that person wants me or not. This date will show me if this person likes me or not, or vice versa. When you perform the simplest calculation does it really matter the complicated reasoning behind the end result. Does all these complicated reasons change the end result. Not really, the end result is the end result. If this then that. Well if this sub routine is chosen, then the end result will be what is programmed. The program continues and the next round one may choose a different if statement, and it may end in a different result. 0 and 1 is the language of existence. It either is, or isn't. That is how I see things really.
Since I started after my existential crisis, I have become stronger, and less destructive to myself, and my life. I am able to have and loose relationships without being crushed, by the human condition known as depression, guilt, self detriment emotional dealings. So to the world that wants to help on both sides of my world. If I ever wanted to complicate my life, I would ask. But living a simple definition of things gives me powers and abilities that allow me to be me.
Friday, November 14, 2014
The work..
Since I have to get ready for work shortly just a couple of thoughts. For about a week I have been working out, and I love my body mechanics so much. In a week my muscles have responded so well. I have growth in the chest, shrinking in the stomach, and some definition starting again. Nothing spectacular, but noticeable to me.
The greatest thing I learned about myself is over the years with all my hardships, the current hardships are easy to come back from. A simple choice, a switch if you will, that allows all the sadness or depression to go away. Change usually presents itself as a thing we dislike, but I am learning that change or steps back setup the situation to move forward as well, just in another direction. Call it a free spirit mentality but that is how it is shaping up to be.
Well got to go to work. Catch everyone later. Leave a comment if you want, if not don't.
The greatest thing I learned about myself is over the years with all my hardships, the current hardships are easy to come back from. A simple choice, a switch if you will, that allows all the sadness or depression to go away. Change usually presents itself as a thing we dislike, but I am learning that change or steps back setup the situation to move forward as well, just in another direction. Call it a free spirit mentality but that is how it is shaping up to be.
Well got to go to work. Catch everyone later. Leave a comment if you want, if not don't.
Twisting the Cove.
The cove is going under construction. It will be my new place to put daily thoughts, along with the philosophical thoughts.
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
Winding Roads --Reflective Dao--
I understand life so much more now then when I was a kid. I understand the horrors of life, the possibilities and capabilities of people in life. I understand that to the best way to deal with a situation of life and death is to never get into those situations at all.
A long time ago I believed blood was thick and would not break, age has provided me with other aspects of blood. Blood is a liquid nothing more and nothing less. You are the type of person of the company you keep, is another aspect I learned. What company does a person like me keep.
Oh I have battled all my friends and had words with them, except one. I have cut bridges time and time again, but each time I grab the rope and tie it off. I know people strive to become better, and sometimes a cut bridge will either motivate them to become better or will at least prove the lack of conviction. Conviction is a word I learned through my travels. A word I still use every day. I have conviction and at any cost will become the serpent sage. I will obtain my sage hood, and as I write this, I am calm and collected. Which is a great feat after the week I have had.
I have a friend that means the world to me, he is jolly, kind hearted and will always have a special place in my heart. I have one, it is just small if you ask some people, but ask those around me, I have a huge heart for those that follow the rules. Josh entered the Dao many years ago more than six. And only last year did he start calling himself a Daoist. My student is so like me in that aspect. It took me forever to call myself a Daoist.
Another person of company I took, or she took me I guess you can say, is Rose. My best friend and a person that I find myself drawn to make better, and who has a unique knack of making me a better person, but along with everyone else, she realizes there are boundaries that can never be crossed. Well I doubt she would really cross them anyways, she like me has the same goals right now. Improve our lives and make live a place where peace and sanctuary can thrive.
I know to younger people too. They are awesome friends. They belong to Rose. They strive to improve their lives, to walk a line to a goal without giving up, without beating themselves up. These two friends have grown up before my eyes, has taken what I naturally give to people and applied it to life. I am very sure they will succeed in life. To think that they both were experiencing a dark time in life when I met them. You would not really guess that a conviction to a task could drastically change them. I give them through action that conviction can make a difference, and they bounce it back to me, showing me that conviction can make a difference.
Out of the world these four I know the most about. These people allow me into their inner thoughts and I allow them too.
But I do not depend on them in life to take me anywhere, I do that myself. They do not rely on me in that same aspect. They strive for their own cultivation as much as I do. Rose and Josh, two of my most prized pupils. Though the two brothers have yet to call themselves Daoists they walk the path of Dao everyday.
I have other friends too, each giving me something in life to strive for, and each taking what is needed from me. I am very lucky to have friends like these, and though I don't depend on them, they do bring a little more value and drive to life.
So monk has anything happened this week to change your values? Has anything made your path shimmer?
No. I have conviction to my rules, and to my goals. I still hold truth above all else, but a lie is not burned away by truth afterwords. I still hold action is more powerful than words. Words are questionable without actions to build the very content of the words. I still know I have a long ways to go, but the weight put on by my own actions see light compared to those I have of other peoples living inside.
I would rather be hated for an action that directs a person to face life, than to never have tried to teach a lesson. I am really on high on conviction to fight for truth and stray away from lies. I still have a big conviction against thieves. I still hold many principles that are unwavering and unbreakable. I still believe that one bad apple spoils the bunch. No I would not change my convictions, if anything what has occurred has only strengthen them.
My support network is built out of intellectuals, and Daoists, and humorous people. I am the company I keep after all. Through all this I am privileged to know these people, and like them I know I will achieve my immortality through them, should anything ever happen to me. Lessons learned from me will be passed on, ideas and thoughts, stories and laughter all will be carried on. My goal of being a sage has not changed, but already i have achieved immortality in life.
I no longer close myself off to the world like I once did, but I am no longer a easy play like I once was. The eyesight seeing through lies are getting clearer the more I stay on the side of truth.
With the winding roads lately, not a single step has been missed on my path. Not a single rest has been taken from the road that is being walked. Winding roads at times are needed to force one to look at the road instead of the surrounding beauty, to make sure the step is good so one does not fall off a cliff. Winding roads are the reasons Daoists an not just go on auto-pilot and call it a day. Plus winding roads test your convictions to the road.
A long time ago I believed blood was thick and would not break, age has provided me with other aspects of blood. Blood is a liquid nothing more and nothing less. You are the type of person of the company you keep, is another aspect I learned. What company does a person like me keep.
Oh I have battled all my friends and had words with them, except one. I have cut bridges time and time again, but each time I grab the rope and tie it off. I know people strive to become better, and sometimes a cut bridge will either motivate them to become better or will at least prove the lack of conviction. Conviction is a word I learned through my travels. A word I still use every day. I have conviction and at any cost will become the serpent sage. I will obtain my sage hood, and as I write this, I am calm and collected. Which is a great feat after the week I have had.
I have a friend that means the world to me, he is jolly, kind hearted and will always have a special place in my heart. I have one, it is just small if you ask some people, but ask those around me, I have a huge heart for those that follow the rules. Josh entered the Dao many years ago more than six. And only last year did he start calling himself a Daoist. My student is so like me in that aspect. It took me forever to call myself a Daoist.
Another person of company I took, or she took me I guess you can say, is Rose. My best friend and a person that I find myself drawn to make better, and who has a unique knack of making me a better person, but along with everyone else, she realizes there are boundaries that can never be crossed. Well I doubt she would really cross them anyways, she like me has the same goals right now. Improve our lives and make live a place where peace and sanctuary can thrive.
I know to younger people too. They are awesome friends. They belong to Rose. They strive to improve their lives, to walk a line to a goal without giving up, without beating themselves up. These two friends have grown up before my eyes, has taken what I naturally give to people and applied it to life. I am very sure they will succeed in life. To think that they both were experiencing a dark time in life when I met them. You would not really guess that a conviction to a task could drastically change them. I give them through action that conviction can make a difference, and they bounce it back to me, showing me that conviction can make a difference.
Out of the world these four I know the most about. These people allow me into their inner thoughts and I allow them too.
But I do not depend on them in life to take me anywhere, I do that myself. They do not rely on me in that same aspect. They strive for their own cultivation as much as I do. Rose and Josh, two of my most prized pupils. Though the two brothers have yet to call themselves Daoists they walk the path of Dao everyday.
I have other friends too, each giving me something in life to strive for, and each taking what is needed from me. I am very lucky to have friends like these, and though I don't depend on them, they do bring a little more value and drive to life.
So monk has anything happened this week to change your values? Has anything made your path shimmer?
No. I have conviction to my rules, and to my goals. I still hold truth above all else, but a lie is not burned away by truth afterwords. I still hold action is more powerful than words. Words are questionable without actions to build the very content of the words. I still know I have a long ways to go, but the weight put on by my own actions see light compared to those I have of other peoples living inside.
I would rather be hated for an action that directs a person to face life, than to never have tried to teach a lesson. I am really on high on conviction to fight for truth and stray away from lies. I still have a big conviction against thieves. I still hold many principles that are unwavering and unbreakable. I still believe that one bad apple spoils the bunch. No I would not change my convictions, if anything what has occurred has only strengthen them.
My support network is built out of intellectuals, and Daoists, and humorous people. I am the company I keep after all. Through all this I am privileged to know these people, and like them I know I will achieve my immortality through them, should anything ever happen to me. Lessons learned from me will be passed on, ideas and thoughts, stories and laughter all will be carried on. My goal of being a sage has not changed, but already i have achieved immortality in life.
I no longer close myself off to the world like I once did, but I am no longer a easy play like I once was. The eyesight seeing through lies are getting clearer the more I stay on the side of truth.
With the winding roads lately, not a single step has been missed on my path. Not a single rest has been taken from the road that is being walked. Winding roads at times are needed to force one to look at the road instead of the surrounding beauty, to make sure the step is good so one does not fall off a cliff. Winding roads are the reasons Daoists an not just go on auto-pilot and call it a day. Plus winding roads test your convictions to the road.
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
The Man in Dark and Child in White.
The monk sat in the park
meditating. Upon meditating he noticed a man dressed all in black that
everyone seemed familiar with, but the monk also saw the person next to
him that was being ignored. A child dressed in white, with white hair.
The monk wondered how such a man existed that would not feel bad the
little child was ignored, and yet he received most of the
acknowledgement.
The monk decided to follow them and pay attention to this person and see what all occurred. The monk saw old, and young alike, male and female all seemed to know this man. The monk thought maybe this man was a celebrity or a famous person. The fact though that the little girl was ignored, frustrated the monk.
The monk asked the man for some of his time to talk and let the monk hear his tale of fame. The monk asked him many questions. He asked the man who the white haired child was, and the man just stated that it was a friends daughter. The monk noticed the girl shook her head no just so slightly.
The monk asked the man how he knows the old and young so well. The man replied with the people seek him out regularly to determine a perception of sorts. The girl simply shook her head. The monk asked why most people ignore the child and only a few even recognize her.
The man stated that in order to tell me he would like to refer to a story of the twins night and day. All though people spent their time in the day, many look forward to the night, many enjoyed the dreams they had, and the enjoyment one had at night. I am like the night in the story, I am easy to talk to and generally I give people what they want. The child, well you know children they say thing like how they are, with no class about it.
After leaving the man the priest was curious about the story and had suspicions about the man still. The priest made his way to the cove, walking slowly and looking for what he missed when he heard a soft whisper of a voice. "Master monk may I ask you for an escort?"
The monk simply replied lost in thought, "Master, I am not but escort you shall have, where are you off to?"
The whisper stated, "Well to the Jade Cove."
At this point the monk came too and realized the whisper came from the small white haired and white clothed girl.The monk asked the girl, "Was what the man in black said was true?"
The girl simply replied, "it his his truth, but rarely is the brutal truth ever recognized". She fell silent and parted her lips in a soft smile.
As they got to the cove, the sage approached the child and bowed his head. "My lady, please come in and teach us." The monk was floored, and asked the sage, "how can one so young, teach those that have spent years in cultivation of the essence?"
At this the monk smiled and simply replied, "Looks are often deceptive."
The girl turned to the monk and told him that she is of the same age as the man in black and he in turn is older than he looks. For the time that she has existed all the sages come to see her, and in grateful response to recognition she shares her knowledge.
At that time the monk understood and knowtow to her, he simply said, "It is my honor to meet you lady truth."
The monk decided to follow them and pay attention to this person and see what all occurred. The monk saw old, and young alike, male and female all seemed to know this man. The monk thought maybe this man was a celebrity or a famous person. The fact though that the little girl was ignored, frustrated the monk.
The monk asked the man for some of his time to talk and let the monk hear his tale of fame. The monk asked him many questions. He asked the man who the white haired child was, and the man just stated that it was a friends daughter. The monk noticed the girl shook her head no just so slightly.
The monk asked the man how he knows the old and young so well. The man replied with the people seek him out regularly to determine a perception of sorts. The girl simply shook her head. The monk asked why most people ignore the child and only a few even recognize her.
The man stated that in order to tell me he would like to refer to a story of the twins night and day. All though people spent their time in the day, many look forward to the night, many enjoyed the dreams they had, and the enjoyment one had at night. I am like the night in the story, I am easy to talk to and generally I give people what they want. The child, well you know children they say thing like how they are, with no class about it.
After leaving the man the priest was curious about the story and had suspicions about the man still. The priest made his way to the cove, walking slowly and looking for what he missed when he heard a soft whisper of a voice. "Master monk may I ask you for an escort?"
The monk simply replied lost in thought, "Master, I am not but escort you shall have, where are you off to?"
The whisper stated, "Well to the Jade Cove."
At this point the monk came too and realized the whisper came from the small white haired and white clothed girl.The monk asked the girl, "Was what the man in black said was true?"
The girl simply replied, "it his his truth, but rarely is the brutal truth ever recognized". She fell silent and parted her lips in a soft smile.
As they got to the cove, the sage approached the child and bowed his head. "My lady, please come in and teach us." The monk was floored, and asked the sage, "how can one so young, teach those that have spent years in cultivation of the essence?"
At this the monk smiled and simply replied, "Looks are often deceptive."
The girl turned to the monk and told him that she is of the same age as the man in black and he in turn is older than he looks. For the time that she has existed all the sages come to see her, and in grateful response to recognition she shares her knowledge.
At that time the monk understood and knowtow to her, he simply said, "It is my honor to meet you lady truth."
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